Im feeling so lazy and beginning to hate updating my blog! God knows why....

Feeling paranoid this few days lately.....being away from my sister is not a good idea actually! I miss her loads and sometimes i just wish we were still younger enjoying stupid arguements or fights.

Being only 16, how much can you handle from life issues? Sometimes i just feel like leaving the house and going to nowhere. But sadly country aint that safe anymore.

At times, i feel very empty, and at times i feel like i just don't wanna live. Everyday, i'll lock myself in my room and tears starts streaming down my cheeks regardless if im happy, lonely or sad. I can't wait to finish my year of high school but i still gotta put up a great show finding my happiness, excitements and great memories in school. Throughout my 11 years of being in the same school, i truely miss my 9th year! That was the BOMB! I can't wait to find where i belong but certainly not where i am right now! I do know the consequences of being a preadult,when you're in college and uni, facing more problems and issues and all but it seems that in generally, teenagers should be having fun in their teen years, but i don't see it in me. Am i just not getting to it or im not going for it?

Never did i feel so much tense and pressure in my heart! Sometimes i just feel like strangling people....

Wonder what happen when i said my 9th year was the BOMB...does that means i've changed or the perspective of people have changed around me? Is it me or is it just you?