POLITICS MUCH?


Dear Diary,


Its already been 9 months and most of my, what i would like to say, dearest but ex-teammates are still berpaling muka for God knows what's the reason. I myself am not sure if i'm on the good side or on the bad side. And the worst of it, they left without telling me. I'm real sick of those pathetic sports policy that as you all know, ends up with politics(in a way)...

Great....and now, they are making me feel as though i had made the worst decision of my life.


But listen pal,
You were the ones that left without discussing with me or at least notify me and now making me as your worst enemy? Just because of a small and i mean the smallest matter and now people are telling their side of story which made it seem horrifying...and because of what? because the want and the need of the power of a parent (apparently a Datin). And to think that you have connections, you get into the national team easily and get a world class training but guess what, in the end you are not being sponsored a cent! I am still happy and being supportive for you of achieving so far but for me, is it worth to give you that much of support after what happen? I dream of getting to the top but I didn't, did i use shortcuts to cut my way through after failing it?


I am 100% sure this is what's happening to most of the sports in M'sia. Pulling each other apart so that someone gets the needs and others don't. So much for Malaysia Boleh...


Wondering if I'm stupid or what, to care something that worth nothing? Should i just say goodbye to something I have passion in and look forward for more adventures that i would love? But what if.....?
Pull me out from this nightmare....please i beg you!

- joyce -

I say....pack my bags and bring out the next passion!