Dear Diary,


....................I hate how the day start by having people to tell me that i'm a fat athlete and that i need to buck up my fitness. It doesn't bother me much but it hurts deep down inside. I tried to take it as a positive sign of encouragement to shed pounds. But face it, the more active i am, the bigger i get and i need to control the bigness or i'll never get my advantages as a state athlete. What should i do and more importantly how can i do it? HELP ME GOD...

xoxo..................

~ frustrated & desperate ~