I was being a naughty girl today.....with the help of my mom!! lolz...well it started with a beautiful sad story about my sports and my dad....its too long to elaborate but basically he doesnt support me in anything...i meant sports... and therefore he doesnt agree in anything i do...except studies of course! But my mom being a cool sport always encourage me to sometimes "play smart" but being a super good daughter, ya think im brave enough to step up? My mom has her boundaries too,she doesnt fully support me but at least she shows she trying to...as for my sister, its hard to tell cause' she's far away but i do know she's a super duper supportive sister...in her own way.


Yea...so that's the starters. What so naughty about that? well...i snuck out behind my dad's back to go to fencing club where i met my long long long time fencing friends whom i've met like about a year ago! yea...basically my dad didn't allowed me to go club even to see my friends... so now u see how insane is that that i have to sneak out with my mom playing the cool sport saying that she's going out with me to OU but actually, she dropped me at KLGCC.....yeap! i love her for doing that though. Not everytime i get to play bad girl with my mom!


In the end, i still went OU but bought nothing...was upset to walk actually! My heart is still so pain to actually face the fact that there are people who doesnt show their supportiveness.... had a talk with my coach, and eventually he told me if i've worked hard enough, i'll land myself in a spot where i can be better than good but i told him the whole story and he showed some agreement saying that it is true that im lack of some support from my family...to actually support like how my friend's family do! Sometimes at venue, i envy that why can't i have parents like those aunties and uncles....Finally i had someone agreeing on my side of the story! And FYI, this applies to all sports that im doing including sports day!!!


That's why...its not that i ain't committed to do something, it's that i'm facing problems but others will take it as bullshit and bogus! I have to end up sacrificing things i love doing most in order to make things less complicated!